Tuesday

When I saw u lead his hand, my heart is no longer "lup" "dup" sound.

But is "pling" "plang" sound..

It's really hurt, do u know? :"(

Yesterday got biology test.

This my first time,

I got confidence to tell u that,

i might can score 20 above in this exam.

U know how happy am i?

Cycle back home, just want to share this message to u..

It's raining.

But when i'm cycling back to home..

I saw u. with him.

U lead his hand, and he is using umbrella to cover u..

I didn't see wrong..

It is u.

But i'm not sure who is it..

At that moment,

Just 1 second.

Feel like want to die.

Feel like my heart broke.

Feel like everything is not important anymore..

Suddenly my mood very down..

Sigh..

Why?

I so hope that it is ur sister..

Immediately text u.. but u didn't reply me..

So i called u..

U told me that because the floor very wet,

So u lead his hand..

Haiz.

I feel like drop from mountain.

Really really down.

although u said so.

but i also feel very sad.

Suddenly no mood to do everything.

My report,

Study.

Long time didn't call u.

I asked for a chance.

But u said be friend better..

Sigh.

I know i hurt u before.

I really hope that u can give me one more chance to prove it to u that i can give u a better life.

I can bring u happiness.

Can u please give me one more chance?

To love u more?

U asked me, if u give me chance what would i do?

Future?

At the moment when i saw u with him.

I knew that, my future can't without u.

My future is u.

U r my future.

My life cant without u.

Losing u, let me feel like...

Everything is abnormal.

U r the reason, why i hardworking.

U r the reason why i study till so hard.

U said i know u well,

once ur heart died, that mean really died.

SIgh.

I know u know me well as well.

When i said i will do it, sure i can do it..

Why u don't give me one more chance? :(

I promise u, i will do what ever i can to become a better guy..

I promise u, i will hurt u anymore.

I promise u, no matter what happened, i also won't leave u alone..

But why u push me away.

It's so hurt when i asked we still got chance to be couple?

But u said "no, i think"

U hurt me so bad..

I want u so badly.

Hope to always be by ur side.

Hope to be back before that, so happy, so caring.

I...

Can u please don't walk so close with him..? :(

Can u please don't...?

Please?

I..

I'm sorry...

What should i do..?
To let u become my the only one..?

What should i do..?
To let u back to my side..?
Can u please... don't leave me alone..?

Don't let my heart die can..?

Friday

Life is just like a movie.
U r the main character.

Every of ur friends are just a minor part.

Their jobs is to help and teach u to become a success character.

But at last, u also need to do it by urself.

Yeah, to become a success one, u must win lonely.

Good morning! :)

Kinda busy, cause gona face two exam on next week.

i'm going to die.

Nxt week organic chemistry,

Doesn't ask much, just at least let me get 30 above la.

Hahaha..

This few days also very late only sleep.

I think soon i will become owl ler. 

Seriously, 

24 hours for me, is not enough.

i think i need 48 hours.24 hours use to sleep.

And another 24 hours use to do my things.

Wednesday that day,

U suddenly text me, and it shocked me.

Unexpected.

I tot u still angry me..

But is so happy to receive ur message.

So sorry cause i didn't notice u pass by there twice ><

Hardworking? no use la. no matter how many effort had i put i also can't score well.

What is my problem?

sigh.

But u suddenly text me, make me feel happy lor. haha

but after tat, u didn't text me anymore,

Can u please don't say some words such as "okay la, don't disturb u la" 

No matter how busy am i. I also won't forget to reply u.

I won't do it again.

I promised myself no matter how busy am i, I also will reply u.

So please don't angry anymore..

Friday, today.

Saw u sit at there.

At first i tot that just pass by enough la. act like didn't saw u.

But when i reach beside u.

My hand will automatic say hi to u.

Why?
Like usual, even tot u didn't ask,

But i also will tell u everything,

Even u don't want to know,

But i also will tell u.

:)

Haiz, many thing passed is passed.

Even u keep on said we still got chance

Even u keep on said she just play u nia, she actually still love me one.

But i know well about her.

When she mean it, she really mean it.

Like if she said tired, she is really tired.

Her tired mean put down.

I know.

I know her well.

She nvr nvr 心软.

Cause she is she..

And i'm who am i.

Just let it be ba.

Time will solve everything. :)

Monday

It's raining,

Why got rain?
Why after rainy day will be sunny day?

Why there are rainbow after rain?

Why i can't see any rainbow after rain?
Does it hide up?

Why so selfish?
Since u r so beautiful, why don't let me see u?

彩虹的故事,

a nice song :)

Good morning,

Today so tired. ><
Rushing for my report,

and also prepare for my wednesday exam.

Well,

Still haven't prepare yet.

Feel like gona GG.

What to do?
No motivation. :(

Today went to school,

My friend treat me eat sticky.

It remind me u..

Still remember that day u suddenly call come and chat with me.

And ask me whether want any present anot? Cause u r traveling.

I told u no need. But u still go and buy sticky for me.

Just because of u, i only eat sticky ><

At first, u brought it back.

Inside contain many colour.

Don't know which one should i choose. haha.

U r the one who told me that green colour is the most nice one.

Then i only start to eat green colour.

Only green colour. Haha.

So miss those day.

Ur sticky still at my home.

Haven't finish yet.

Cause no more green colour, and anothers colour i don't like. haha

Don't say me picky eater please. i'm not Xp

But hope share with u. The happiness of eating green colour de sticky.. :)

Is already midnight 2.24 a.m.

I saw u online,

But i don't know what to do.

Should i say i couldn't do anything?

Well,

I really hope to say a hi to u..

but i not dare.

Cause i know u won't reply me anymore..

Keep on press ur name on the chat box, and close it.

Until i found out that u have offline..

Yeah..

Time won't wait anyone.

Chance also.

If u missed, it won't return.

Chance provided by u, but i didn't appreciate it..

How was ur day?

Today i saw ur sister with formal leh.

Haha. She's so handsome =.=

Saw her at block b, i think she is currently having group assignment?

Today have class till 8 o.. tired till hell.

back home still need to rush for my report.

Until now....

Got drink more water?

Please take good care of urself ar, cause the weather is hot, easily get sick.

But i think my remind also no use la, cause he will remind u right? haha

Saw ur new pic with ur dog. Tot want to press like de. 

but... suan liao la :)

Sure busy ur assignment until very tired lur..
Faster go rest lar, don't make urself feel tired ar. :)

If u let me know that u fall in sick den u sure kena from me edi. haha.

Goodnight lor..

Sunday

I'm still waiting,

Waiting u.

Please don't leave me alone.

Good morning..

Yesterday think alot..

Thx for ur advice. :)

At first i tot that friend really cannot,

but when clam down and think clearly,

Isn't every perfect couple start with a best friendship?

Sorry.. cause I think i had made u down.

Made u sad.

So sorry...

So regret.

But it's all too late..

Just like what my friend said, 

Every thing also got it's time limit one.

When the time reached, u can't never get it back.

So before it expired, please appreciate it.

Yeah. is too late.

If i were given second chance.

I would like to say yes.

No matter what happen.

I also will say yes.

OR not today we also won't become like that.

If that day, i say a yes.

At least we can be friend :)

But..

I can't pass myself.

When i saw him chat with u,

Eat with u,

know him go ur house,

know u walk very near with him.

I will feel... 

U know?
Even i told my friend i'm okay.

But that's was just an illusion of mine.

Even i tried to think that it's all right noel. U will be better after a nap.

But soon i will feel lonely.

Soon i will feel sadness.

That's all fake.

I'm not okay.

Today was a rainy day.

But why i will feel sadness?
Why i will feel lonely?
Why i will feel moody?

Feel like want to shout out loud to express my feel.

I'm so tired.
R u facing the same situation like me before?

Yeah, i deserve it. sorry.

You know how was the feel? Now i do know it, sorry.

Today watched running man. one esp.

DO u know how was the feel when u watched something that is funny but u can't laugh it out instead of feel like wana cry? :)

I feel so suffer.

First time watch running man without laughing.

Well,

I still remember u r the first person to tell me that i look alike him..

Haha. feel so happy, cause it is the first time, got people praise me look like an artist.

Although he's not handsome. :)
But u told me that u love him very much, call me to spoil his image.

Hahaha.

Now think back also feel very funny.

Few times.

I feel like want to text u.

But at last i also can't do it.

Cause i know u won't reply me.

U told me that u won' forgive me anymore..

haha. so what i can do is ask u at here.

How was ur day?

Whole day also busy assignment?

Did he bring u go eat?
I beat he did it :)

Don't let urself down, if u feel tired, please go take a rest. :)

Take care.

Goodnight :)

Saturday

Is it a couple

can no longer be back a normal friend after they break up?

No choice to choose,

Just to become and enemy?

Finally,

The end.

We get the conclusion,

Every thing solved.

At the end,

U choose to be alone,

Choose to don't want to back like normal,

Choose to be like that.

Actually, i don't think that is a problem.

I think the reason is because of him right..?

haha. finally i successful forced u to said it.

Not because of what.

I had no reason. 

Why don't give me one more chance?

It happen one more time.

I tot is already the end.

I tot it won't happen anymore,

I tot it won't happen to me anymore.
I did promise myself it won't happen again.

but why?
Why i had edi tried my best,

and finally what i get is this?

God u told me that everything is fair,
U told me if u will gain what u gift.

U told me that everything is fair.
U told me that if u willing to give it out, den u will get it back as well.

But why?

I paid so many.
I sacrifice so many,

But what i get is like that?
Why i don't deserve it?

Why?
I remember i did pray for u rite?
What should i do?
I am tired of it, I don't want to continue to walk it.
If is not the way, please bring me to the road that u want me to walk it.

I feel so suffer.

Thank you.

Thank you so much.

U r the one who bring me happiness and sadness.

U r the one who allow me to find out who am I.

U r the one why am i studying. 

Thank you,

Although start from today, my hp won't appear ur message anymore.

Thank you,

Because u made me become stronger.

Thank you,

Because u successful make my heart died.

I won't trust any people anymore.

Thank you,

Because u made me become more unfeeling.

From now onward,

I will become very very unfeeling.

Just because of u.
I won't let this happen again.

Still remember how we meet?

Still remember the moment when we exchange our hp number?

Still remember the moment that we study together?

Still remember when i down, u r the one who cheer me up?

Still remember when i scold by my family, my friend spoil my mood, u r the one who helped me and accompany me?

Still remember u told me before? no matter what happened u also will stand beside me and support me?
Still remember when i going to give up, u r the one who forced me to try my best..?

Still remember during my birthday, u treat me eat sushi?
Still remember u keep on apologize to me because can't pass my birthday with me at last year?

Still remember u gift a necklace to me during my birthday.

Still remember when i passed my car test, u r the first girl that i fetch?

Still remember we walk to so far d snow fushion, just because of study?

Do u remember i told u before, no matter what happen i also won't leave u alone...?

I...
I do remember all of it..
I do..

I really do..
I did promised u, i won't hurt u..

I do remember it as well.
I really do...

 

Friday

Someone told me,

If u found something that is important,

No matter what happen,

NO matter how hard is it,

No matter u need to sacrifice what important things.

Just go and get it.

Then u will deserve it
Then u won't feel regret.

But why i sacrificed many thing,

I also can't get it?

Does it mean i don't deserve it? :)

What happened?

Whole day also no mood study,

haha,

next wednesday still got exam. 

Headache.

My mood wasn't on.

Hope u r the one who push me to study.

Hope u r still like the one that i knew.

Always push me go study.

Why today don't bother me?

Did i made u angry?
Sorry ar, doesn't mean it.

Wish i could control myself.

But always also fail.

Really hope to get an answer from u.

Really hope that u will tell me the answer :)

Although u told me the answer.

I also can't accept it..

Why don't bother me?

Whole day also waiting for ur message.

Hais.

Why so fierce?

Just because there's a wall between us.
So we can't communicate well?

Or some noise is disturbing us?
So we can't communicate?

My mum told me,

As a friend.

U should communicate well with them,

Use ur ear to listen,

Think before u talk,

The most important thing is,

U must believe him or her.

Then u will only keep ur friend or ur lover.

But i know what was she talking about.

Yeah,

I think it before.

I really used my brain and tried to think.

I edi tried my best to be patient.

But always fail.

Haha, so sorry.

Maybe because of it, den i doesn't deserve it? :)

Goodnight :)

Thursday

For a guy like me, my answer is u.
even i tell you simply.
even if I don't make sense.
Even I can't explain,
this is how I feel :)

So sorry.
Treat u so fierce.
hope u can forgive me.
Until now u also haven't reply me.
isit mean u didn't open facebook?
Or u not willing to forgive me?
Or.. U busy do ur assignment?
Or u spamming ur time with him?
Well,
what can i say is sorry.
Finally reach home edi.
Feel so tired,
why u were not here? :)
Actually,
what i hope is,
Now i'm at KL
Help them.
Sigh,
why had i become so?
God church don't go
Got family don't want acompany.
haha
I changed.
Far away from GOd.
Maybe because of that,
He punished me?
haha.
Whole day also wait for ur message.
Wait nothing :) haha.
Hope someone can chat with me.
Can't find another edi.
Why today u didn't online?
so weird.
Hope u r alright.
Well what to do? go study lor..
Goodnight :)