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New year,
New life,
New me.
I won't repeat my mistake again.
I won't let old noel come back again.
2013, I will be a better guy :)



Many things happened.
Include my birthday, final exam and also today!
Wao.
Memorable.
So sad that 24 of december.
I'm sick.
But luckily, i still got u all :)
Thanks for giving me so many surprise.
Love u all <3 p="p">I will keep it inside my heart.
Really appreciate it :)
Thanks.
Final.
We did do our best.
I did.
I did do all my best.
If still can't.
Wish mean i need to change course ler.
and that time I would like to say.
BYE BYE, my dream.. :)
Whole weak.
Keep on repeat and repeat.
study and study.
sleep for 4 or 5 hours only
So pressure.
+ suffer.
How i wish i'm like those genius.
x)
Finally.
I did went to pub before 19 and the last day of my 18 x)
First time,
Really first time.
Those sounds, peoples, drinks, songs,
really make us mad.
Now i und why my friends always go to pub.
I see I see.
Many things changes.
My friends.
So I would like to changes as well xD
What can i do?
A new year leh.
Should i set a target for myself?
Erm...
Let me think.
Wao. 2012.
Everything start here.
Our memory,
How we build up our relationship,
end it.
SPM ended,
decided my future.
My friends,
Went to UTAR.
Knew new friends,
even change my life style,
Many people said that i look alike someone.
Get more and more knowledge.
Study hard.
Play hard X)
Everythings. also came from 2012.
I learnt it in this year.
What a meaningful year :)
What should i do leh?
Even U treat me very very very very very cold till I also going to get freeze.
I'm always using a bunsen burner and heat myself to get warmer leh.
Please don't keep on reduce the temperature le la.
I'm trying hard to heat it ler.. T^T
14 days.
Before my school start.
I would like to change myself.
Do something which could benefit myself.
Learn something new.
Maybe guitar songs or piano? xD
Keep fit xD
I will do it. as my next 13 days holiday. haha
2013 ler. At here,
I wish u all can have a happy 2013 lar.
Every thing will be alright :)
for me.
I wish I can don't think about it edi.
Don't because of it suffer.
And also get u x)
GOOD nite and sweet dream.
"what a happy nite xP"

friday

你说想哭就弹琴，

想起你就写信，

爱了就决定，

累了就别任性，

但为何，我看见你累了但还那么的人性呢？

Morning. :)

Alone in kampar.

Don't wish to go home.

Cause no mood.

The end of the world?
But i'm living peacefully in my hostel.

but sadly, i can't pass it with my family :(

although i ate tan yuan.

My mum, sis went to play just me alone need to study..

Yeah, i admit,

I find others girl to chat is because i want to forget u.

If not i can't do it.

Thanks.

Thank for accompany me.

Syuen.

I really don't know what u want.

U want me to care about u?
But why when i want to care about u,

U just push me away?

When i choose to left u alone,

but u start to emo?

Can u just tell me what u want?

I am tired of guessing u.

Cause u never give me ur answer.

Doesn't u said that want to be friend?

But why u let me feel that u still like me?

But why u let me feel that u still love me?

I don't want to think too much.

But u make me so.

I already tried.

Sigh..

Maybe just like zi wei said.

It's not easy to get into someone's mind.

It even hardest to get into someone's heart.

Just give me a break can?

Summer has come a pass.

Can u just wake me up when december end?

Here come the rain,

Falling from the sky,

I keep on blame it.

Why don't it appear sunshine?
where is the sun?
As my memory rest,

But u come again and agian..
What to do..?

Sorry,

Just now too....angry, please forgive me.

Erm. Thx han.

cause accompany me whole day.

I think if without u, i probably can't study ba?
Although sometime u want to study,

maybe u'll feel annoying?

But i just wish i could chat with u. even it's expensive.

Only chatting with u can let me forget something.

Thanks.. :)

Monday

So envy those zombies.
No need to think so many things.
Just live for foods, die for foods.
So wish i could become like zombies.
No emotion, no feeling.
No need to study, No need computers.
The important things is, no need to think.





Good morning,
So sorry.
I'm still can't forget about it.
I did tried my best.
I really did.
U know how suffer am I?
every morning wake up,
face the mirror,
and tell myself.
U don't like her anymore, U don't like her anymore,
Go find others, She is no longer suit u.
Even i know I will feel moody if i go open ur profile.
But sometimes, I can't handle myself.
Even I know I will sad, I also choose to type ur name inside my friend search there.
Just wish to see that r u alright?
Did he done his work?
Erm, yeah i feel happy cause that day u told me what happened to u and him.
But sorry. I don't even feel happy.
Just.. envy :")
I'm sorry. I'm trying my best to forget u.
But u suddenly pop out with this conversation.
I don't know what to answer u.
So i choose to said, no need to reply my message..
Sorry.
I'll like that is because i feel that no one can take care of u.
I'll like that is because no one is better den me. at least I thin so.
Every time when he or u post something is about u all de, I will hide it.
Just because i want to forget u.
I'm doing it well..
Anyway, at least someone did accompany me..
Thx..
Because of u, I really can no need to think so much.
Thanks.. thanks.
But sadly,
We need to study,
if not i don't wish to end our conversation with a words "Study"
Sigh.
Don't worry syuen.
I'm doing it. hehe.
So all the best in ur coming 21 final exam lar.
"if the world didnt end"
haha.
Won't la. GOD will protect u one :P
Just.. all the best :)
How are u this following days?
I think, u r good rite? :)
every things fine?
I will keep in touch with u. don't worry.
If he dare to do something wrong. I will go and kick him, don't worry. haha
Just wish that u will happy forever and ever. :)
Remember.. SMILE! hehe
U r the prettiest when u smile, still remember it?
I told u before. hehe
Anyway, good luck.
I will move on.
And.. My iPhone 5 is coming!!!! exciting!!!
But my final is around the corner as well.. haha
Anyway, let's add oil :)
GOD bless.

Saturday

New life,

New journey,

Although will feel sad without u.

But,

I'll soon forget u.. Soon. :)
GOD thx.

GOOD morning. :)

My 1st day..

Hard to tell what is my feel.

Finally passed.

Thx for giving me such opportunity to learn how to become strong..

Thanks. hehe

Think carefully o :)

My advice..

Today went to library study.

Thanks for ur accompany, yi han.

We are facing the same things as well.

Add oil la. hehe

forget about it :(

Drive for 2 hours, for back hometown.

Very tired lur.. :(

But still okay la.. haha

I will continue to study one, tomorrow. haha.

Add oil NOEL!

U can do it one.

GOOD NITE :)

Friday

12/12/2012

It won't come again.

Thanks for willing to come out,

for last time chatting. :)

At last..

Every things over :)

New life started.

Well.

Thanks for everything..

谢谢，

真的很谢谢你，

曾经你是我的目标，

过后你是我的未来，

但一切的一切，

都因为我的自私而破碎了。 :)

谢谢你喜欢我，

我也喜欢...当年喜欢我的你。

那些年，

我们一起读书的地方，

那些年，

我们每个礼拜才见一次的地方，

那些年，

我们在一起成长的地方。

最后一次了。

昨晚，

就算是我得不到的答案，

但我也是很开心。

因为我已经说完我要说的了，

谢谢你。

给了我你心中的答案，

对，勉强没有幸福。

那是我最后一次在你面前流泪了，

我不会再流泪了，

我会学习坚强。

我不会再想小孩子那样了。

虽然，在火车上，

你不是哪一位一直陪我到终点的那一位，

但你却比 这一位跟来的重要。

是你教会了我如何坐火车，

是的，我也应该上路了。

我也应该换火车了，

虽然我不知道几时才可以在搭会这一台火车，

但...随缘吧 :)

你的火车已经走了，

我的火车票也已经到期了。

谢谢你 :)

我答应你的，一定会做到。

我一定会改变的，

别担心。

我们一起加油！

我会把我们的记忆，回忆，曾经。

放在我心底处，

永永远远，都不会忘记 :)

再见了，

旧的李奇峰也应该走了，

坐在原地太久了，

应该起来走动了，

加油加油 :)

没有你的日子会很寂寞，

但不要担心，

我会找到我因该珍惜的人的，

像你说的那样，

留给我真真珍惜的人。

我会的。

我不会让你的泪白流的 :)

对不起。

做过那么多对不起你的事情。

我...

我真的不知该说什么，

但还是要说,

对不起和谢谢你...... :")

Tuesday

Never betray or lie to your friends.

Cause those who betrayed or lied by u.

Is those who trust u.

Good morning. :)

Just...

Hope u won't forget me.

Hehe..

Waited u so long, but u also didn't text me.

I think.. Just...

Nvm, nothing la :)

How was ur day..?

I wish to text with u. whole day.

But.. I scare.

Scare will disturb u.

Wake up in the morning.

Just hope that u can eat it before go into the exam hall.

Cause my dad told me before.

If u leave ur stomach empty, not having ur breakfast.

Then ur brain will be empty as well, u think nothing and do nothing.

So i was wondering.

Since u exam start at nine.

I bring ur breakfast to u at 7 will be alright.

Just hope that u can do well in ur exam.

But since like i'm just.. done alot right? :)
U look like don't like it.

I'm sorry.

I don't understand u, maybe.

So i am just doing, what i think is correct.

U said at least tell u.

But i know, when i ask u. 

"no need, thx" or "don't want" will always appear in my next message after asking u this question.

So, I rather to buy it first also don't want to ask u, cause i know u will reject me.

But I do this, is just because... :)

My friends gave me comment.

U r so childish, and that's why u lose, and that's why u can't get it, u really don't understand!

Yeah...

I am so childish,

I not dare to look at him, 

When i know u r with him, my mind will call me not to go find u even how depressed am I to wish to see u.

I scare lose. yeah.

That's why i'm learning, how to understand u.

Read ur mind.

Someone told me, when a people speak it out the words, 

which mean the people feel that is meaningless already.

Haha. it remind me something..

Yeah, i really don't und u,

so i wish i could know more about u,

U no need to tell me. cause if what also tell, mean consider as not understand u.

I want to understand u.

Sorry, cause i really scare i will lose to him.

Even all of my friends also told me that, yeah, he is much more better den u.

But..... 

40966804483087 :)

At last..

I also went to find u.

At there,

I know u r there.

How i wish i could walk into it and sit beside u and study with u.

I scare.

I really scare.

I don't know what to do.

Thinking how to see u.

Not dare to go inside and buy a cup of water.

Not dare to stand in front of u and say hi to u.

Cause i scare it will affect ur study..

Sigh.

But when i  asked u whether can come out? but u also choose to stay there,

means.... :")

Nvm, I will be fine.

Sorry because cheat u.

I don't want u to worry about me. so i choose to said i went back edi.

Actually, i sit at there for half an hour edi.

Just wish that u can come out.

But at last, u also didn't did it.

My friend called me to back.

I beg him for 5 more min just because I wish that u will come out and find me. :)

I wish so.

Slow down my speed.

Waiting, and waiting.

But u didn't come out.

Wait u at home.

But at last, what i get is just....

A dream.

Sunday

God, why u r so weird?

Why u create us with so?

Before becoming couple,

Him know well about her,

but after becoming couple.

She keep on blame him don't understanding her.

What is the meaning of becoming couple? :)

Good morning! 

This few days happened many things.

Thanks for everything.

First..

You.

I will be strong. Don't worry, i will do it. hehe. 

If it can make u happy, i willing to do it.

no matter what. :)

And i promise u, i won't think so much.

So don't because of me make u can't study la :)

Next,

Thanks, family. ur "advice". u all did cheer my whole day. :)

Appreciate it, cause i have u all. I love u all :)

Friends...

I will accept it. i know it is hard,

but.. nothing is better den her smile.

if she happy. i would like to do it :)

This few days,

like few years.

haha.

It hard to pass it, while i'm alone.

but.. i know.

after a nap, every thing will be fine.

Even i face the mirror,

Keep on blaming myself.
No matter how i blame u,

Hate myself.

After a nap, i feel peaceful.

Feel comfortable. haha..

So sorry, cause i know u r study but still call u and talk those things to u..

sorry.

Not because of what,

just.

I'm jealous about it only.

but nvm lar. at least u happy den okay le la. i'm not important. hehe

But when i saw u walk into the shop and study.

How i wish i could go in and accompany u..

But i give up,

cause i don't wish to disturb u..

So i used my car.

Keep on pass by and pass by.

Just wish to see u studying.

Den i will be alright.. hehe

U said u didn't bring ur charger. 

So i straight away, take my laptop and my books go u there.

haha. so disappointed, when i know that  have back home and get ur laptop charger.

so nvm la, just sit inside the car and see u walk into it..

It fee so bad, but at least u r alright. haha.

Trying to think in positive way..

Today morning,

Wish to buy something for u to eat de..

but sadly, u had ur breakfast edi..

So.. nvm la :)

Tot go into mcd and buy ice-cream treat u eat de..

but think har think har. 

nvm la,

u said u fat edi, so i don't want u continue fat ler. so fat de things. avoid it la. hehe

If u feel tired den don't wake up and jogging le la.. :)

Sleep as long as u like, den wake up and study.

If u think about ur breakfast, no problem.

I will prepare for u, 

just...

when u need me :) I will be there.

So happy cause just now can chat with u..

How i wish the time can stop at that time..

Or slow down..

I know it's impossible :)

Just don't think so much le la.

Think happy de things lar. hehe

All the best in ur exam wor.

I will pray for u~

GAMBATEH :)

Thursday

"Every thing will be all right, 

forget yesterday things,

today will be good,

don't give up! :)"

That's the sentences that help me to become strong, u know? :(

Good morning,

Finally,

finally u willing to give me a chance to eat with u ler.

haha,

U know how happy am I?

I really feel like flying lor. haha.

But, my car doesn't want to listen to me..

Sigh,

Although that time i no mood to have my dinner edi,

but ur words,

finally i also ate ler.. hehe

Enjoy it so much :)

but.. why u keep on want me to go..?

I just wish to stay beside u..

Even one more second also can..

Just wish to stay beside u..

I don't care what they said.

I just wish that i could follow what my heart told me..

Their words not important.

I just don't want to regret.

I lose u one time,

I don't want it happen again.

If i have given the chance,

I will appreciate it.. :)

Today drama.

U came.

U know how happy am i?

I really can't describe my feel,

but..

Why he is beside u..?

I know lar..

but can u don't always stick with him..? :)

I know i am not ur who..

I can't order u to do what..

Just, i will feel sad only.

Nvm la, just do what u feel happy den okay edi lar..

U start to grow fat edi wor..

Don't always call him to fetch u la..

I willing to cycle with u :)

I willing to wait u.

I willing to do everything. including fetching u..

U said very scary rite..?

Actually, i will become so is just because i scare i will lose him.

All of my friends also said he is handsome then me,

feel like good den me,

even u also always stick to him..

He also always stick to u..

But do u know?

I really care about it..

I changed alot.

Just because I want u to know that, i willing to change just because of u.

I can do what he could, even better den him..

But why u just accept his invitation, but not me.?

I know..

Is because u want me to give up u rite..?

U told me that we can't be like last time like that edi..

Just be friend..

But...

I just want u to be mine.

We can't but if both of us willing.

Even can better den last time like that..

Can u please don't call me to give up u..?

It's hurt..

Very very hurt.

Every time when  u choose to stick with him.

I will feel very sad.

Even my tears will suddenly come out from my eyes.

But do u know?

I keep on remind myself.

"Everything will be alright, She only eat with him, study with him, don't think so much"

I edi tried not to think it.

But my mind will keep on think about it..

Even when u suddenly didn't reply me.

I will start to worried about u.

That's why i called u every morning and every night..

So wish that i could heard ur voice.

And can sleep nicely.

Do u know ur voice really can cheer my whole day?

See u also enough edi..

I really hope that every morning, when i wake up, i can heard ur voice, and also see u..

And every night.. before slept, can heard a good night from u.

Hear ur cute cute de voice,

Hehe :)

please.. don't call me give up u.

This sentence make me so depress.

Please don't said be back normal friends..

I want u so badly.. really :(

U r my everything..

Hope today everything r getting well.

Hope u this pig can concentrate on ur study lar.

Don't play his ipad le la. :)

U know i will angry d la. but u also know no matter what happen i also will forget u one :)

Good night lur :) hehe. sweet dream..

Monday

I really don't know what are u thinking,

Sometime u treat me like ur boyfriend,

but sometime u will treat me very very cold.

But when i ask u, whether u gave me a chance?

but u will answer me just treat me like friend.

What should i do? :)

Good morning. hehe :)

Know u very hardworking..

So not dare to disturb u..

but when i know u r with him.

Don't know why,

I will feel very worry and..

Just will feel worry lor :)

Although u said he won't eat u..

Haha..

Just can't control myself,

Can't control my words,

So if i did said something wrong..

Please.. tahan awhile la.. hehe.

Don't suddenly treat me till so cold lur :(

I will feel sad one :)

So sorry..

I wish to go mcd just now.

But i got meeting..

If not i sure will go one..

But just now the sentence very weird..

U said:" u not said that i'm very important meh? why not dare to come?"

Actually not dare to come or not..

Just if i go, i will affect ur study.. then i better don't want go lar..

But u said only with him, make me feel like want to go accompany u..

But for u future.. i don't wish to disturb u study..

So i just be patient, although i feel sad :)

Don't keep it in mind, cause i edi make used in it..

Hurt only ma, tried to think something which is positive den nothing d la..

Hehe. don't worry ( although i know u won't worry la :) )

Yesterday so happy lor.

Feel like become back like last time ler.

Can play ball with u.

Play cards with u.

Chat with u.

The important thing is, "With u"

At first when u said no this answer. make me feel very disappointed d lor.

But when ur bro said neh, there is her.

Suddenly I became very happy. Haha

Wish to chat with u rite now..

But u said tired,

So i just give up la.. 

Cause i know, when u said tired.

U really mean tired,

Means u really need to sleep edi. haha.

So i better don't disturb u this pig la.

If not later scolded by u, this piggie xD

Erm.. Wish to share with u what happened today..

Ms. Chin. our ECS teacher, teach us how to maintain a relationship leh. haha

And teach us many things, which is about relationship d..

Haha.

Suddenly think about our past :)

U really did alot.

Sacrifices alot.

Just i didn't appreciate only.

But don't worry,

From now onward, 

You no need to sacrifice anything, 

But i will sacrifice mine.

To bring happiness to u :)

If u won't mind.

I never changes..

And what i promised to u yesterday.

I will do it. :)

And GOOD NITE :)
SWEET DREAM :)