Monday 31 December 2012

1/1

New year,
New life,
New me.
I won't repeat my mistake again.
I won't let old noel come back again.
2013, I will be a better guy :)



Many things happened.
Include my birthday, final exam and also today!
Wao.
Memorable.
So sad that 24 of december.
I'm sick.
But luckily, i still got u all :)
Thanks for giving me so many surprise.
Love u all <3 p="p">I will keep it inside my heart.
Really appreciate it :)
Thanks.
Final.
We did do our best.
I did.
I did do all my best.
If still can't.
Wish mean i need to change course ler.
and that time I would like to say.
BYE BYE, my dream.. :)
Whole weak.
Keep on repeat and repeat.
study and study.
sleep for 4 or 5 hours only
So pressure.
+ suffer.
How i wish i'm like those genius.
x)
Finally.
I did went to pub before 19 and the last day of my 18 x)
First time,
Really first time.
Those sounds, peoples, drinks, songs,
really make us mad.
Now i und why my friends always go to pub.
I see I see.
Many things changes.
My friends.
So I would like to changes as well xD
What can i do?
A new year leh.
Should i set a target for myself?
Erm...
Let me think.
Wao. 2012.
Everything start here.
Our memory,
How we build up our relationship,
end it.
SPM ended,
decided my future.
My friends,
Went to UTAR.
Knew new friends,
even change my life style,
Many people said that i look alike someone.
Get more and more knowledge.
Study hard.
Play hard X)
Everythings. also came from 2012.
I learnt it in this year.
What a meaningful year :)
What should i do leh?
Even U treat me very very very very very cold till I also going to get freeze.
I'm always using a bunsen burner and heat myself to get warmer leh.
Please don't keep on reduce the temperature le la.
I'm trying hard to heat it ler.. T^T
14 days.
Before my school start.
I would like to change myself.
Do something which could benefit myself.
Learn something new.
Maybe guitar songs or piano? xD
Keep fit xD
I will do it. as my next 13 days holiday. haha
2013 ler. At here,
I wish u all can have a happy 2013 lar.
Every thing will be alright :)
for me.
I wish I can don't think about it edi.
Don't because of it suffer.
And also get u x)
GOOD nite and sweet dream.
"what a happy nite xP"

Friday 21 December 2012

friday

你说想哭就弹琴,
想起你就写信,
爱了就决定,
累了就别任性,
但为何,我看见你累了但还那么的人性呢?



Morning. :)
Alone in kampar.
Don't wish to go home.
Cause no mood.
The end of the world?
But i'm living peacefully in my hostel.
but sadly, i can't pass it with my family :(
although i ate tan yuan.
My mum, sis went to play just me alone need to study..
Yeah, i admit,
I find others girl to chat is because i want to forget u.
If not i can't do it.
Thanks.
Thank for accompany me.
Syuen.
I really don't know what u want.
U want me to care about u?
But why when i want to care about u,
U just push me away?
When i choose to left u alone,
but u start to emo?
Can u just tell me what u want?
I am tired of guessing u.
Cause u never give me ur answer.
Doesn't u said that want to be friend?
But why u let me feel that u still like me?
But why u let me feel that u still love me?
I don't want to think too much.
But u make me so.
I already tried.
Sigh..
Maybe just like zi wei said.
It's not easy to get into someone's mind.
It even hardest to get into someone's heart.
Just give me a break can?
Summer has come a pass.
Can u just wake me up when december end?
Here come the rain,
Falling from the sky,
I keep on blame it.
Why don't it appear sunshine?
where is the sun?
As my memory rest,
But u come again and agian..
What to do..?
Sorry,
Just now too....angry, please forgive me.
Erm. Thx han.
cause accompany me whole day.
I think if without u, i probably can't study ba?
Although sometime u want to study,
maybe u'll feel annoying?
But i just wish i could chat with u. even it's expensive.
Only chatting with u can let me forget something.
Thanks.. :)

Monday 17 December 2012

Monday

So envy those zombies.
No need to think so many things.
Just live for foods, die for foods.
So wish i could become like zombies.
No emotion, no feeling.
No need to study, No need computers.
The important things is, no need to think.





Good morning,
So sorry.
I'm still can't forget about it.
I did tried my best.
I really did.
U know how suffer am I?
every morning wake up,
face the mirror,
and tell myself.
U don't like her anymore, U don't like her anymore,
Go find others, She is no longer suit u.
Even i know I will feel moody if i go open ur profile.
But sometimes, I can't handle myself.
Even I know I will sad, I also choose to type ur name inside my friend search there.
Just wish to see that r u alright?
Did he done his work?
Erm, yeah i feel happy cause that day u told me what happened to u and him.
But sorry. I don't even feel happy.
Just.. envy :")
I'm sorry. I'm trying my best to forget u.
But u suddenly pop out with this conversation.
I don't know what to answer u.
So i choose to said, no need to reply my message..
Sorry.
I'll like that is because i feel that no one can take care of u.
I'll like that is because no one is better den me. at least I thin so.
Every time when he or u post something is about u all de, I will hide it.
Just because i want to forget u.
I'm doing it well..
Anyway, at least someone did accompany me..
Thx..
Because of u, I really can no need to think so much.
Thanks.. thanks.
But sadly,
We need to study,
if not i don't wish to end our conversation with a words "Study"
Sigh.
Don't worry syuen.
I'm doing it. hehe.
So all the best in ur coming 21 final exam lar.
"if the world didnt end"
haha.
Won't la. GOD will protect u one :P
Just.. all the best :)
How are u this following days?
I think, u r good rite? :)
every things fine?
I will keep in touch with u. don't worry.
If he dare to do something wrong. I will go and kick him, don't worry. haha
Just wish that u will happy forever and ever. :)
Remember.. SMILE! hehe
U r the prettiest when u smile, still remember it?
I told u before. hehe
Anyway, good luck.
I will move on.
And.. My iPhone 5 is coming!!!! exciting!!!
But my final is around the corner as well.. haha
Anyway, let's add oil :)
GOD bless.

Friday 14 December 2012

Saturday

New life,
New journey,
Although will feel sad without u.
But,
I'll soon forget u.. Soon. :)
GOD thx.



GOOD morning. :)
My 1st day..
Hard to tell what is my feel.
Finally passed.
Thx for giving me such opportunity to learn how to become strong..
Thanks. hehe
Think carefully o :)
My advice..
Today went to library study.
Thanks for ur accompany, yi han.
We are facing the same things as well.
Add oil la. hehe
forget about it :(
Drive for 2 hours, for back hometown.
Very tired lur.. :(
But still okay la.. haha
I will continue to study one, tomorrow. haha.
Add oil NOEL!
U can do it one.
GOOD NITE :)

Thursday 13 December 2012

Friday

12/12/2012
It won't come again.
Thanks for willing to come out,
for last time chatting. :)



At last..
Every things over :)
New life started.
Well.
Thanks for everything..
谢谢,
真的很谢谢你,
曾经你是我的目标,
过后你是我的未来,
但一切的一切,
都因为我的自私而破碎了。 :)
谢谢你喜欢我,
我也喜欢...当年喜欢我的你。
那些年,
我们一起读书的地方,
那些年,
我们每个礼拜才见一次的地方,
那些年,
我们在一起成长的地方。
最后一次了。
昨晚,
就算是我得不到的答案,
但我也是很开心。
因为我已经说完我要说的了,
谢谢你。
给了我你心中的答案,
对,勉强没有幸福。
那是我最后一次在你面前流泪了,
我不会再流泪了,
我会学习坚强。
我不会再想小孩子那样了。
虽然,在火车上,
你不是哪一位一直陪我到终点的那一位,
但你却比 这一位跟来的重要。
是你教会了我如何坐火车,
是的,我也应该上路了。
我也应该换火车了,
虽然我不知道几时才可以在搭会这一台火车,
但...随缘吧 :)
你的火车已经走了,
我的火车票也已经到期了。
谢谢你 :)
我答应你的,一定会做到。
我一定会改变的,
别担心。
我们一起加油!
我会把我们的记忆,回忆,曾经。
放在我心底处,
永永远远,都不会忘记 :)
再见了,
旧的李奇峰也应该走了,
坐在原地太久了,
应该起来走动了,
加油加油 :)
没有你的日子会很寂寞,
但不要担心,
我会找到我因该珍惜的人的,
像你说的那样,
留给我真真珍惜的人。
我会的。
我不会让你的泪白流的 :)
对不起。
做过那么多对不起你的事情。
我...
我真的不知该说什么,
但还是要说,
对不起和谢谢你...... :")

Monday 10 December 2012

Tuesday

Never betray or lie to your friends.
Cause those who betrayed or lied by u.
Is those who trust u.




Good morning. :)
Just...
Hope u won't forget me.
Hehe..
Waited u so long, but u also didn't text me.
I think.. Just...
Nvm, nothing la :)
How was ur day..?
I wish to text with u. whole day.
But.. I scare.
Scare will disturb u.
Wake up in the morning.
Just hope that u can eat it before go into the exam hall.
Cause my dad told me before.
If u leave ur stomach empty, not having ur breakfast.
Then ur brain will be empty as well, u think nothing and do nothing.
So i was wondering.
Since u exam start at nine.
I bring ur breakfast to u at 7 will be alright.
Just hope that u can do well in ur exam.
But since like i'm just.. done alot right? :)
U look like don't like it.
I'm sorry.
I don't understand u, maybe.
So i am just doing, what i think is correct.
U said at least tell u.
But i know, when i ask u. 
"no need, thx" or "don't want" will always appear in my next message after asking u this question.
So, I rather to buy it first also don't want to ask u, cause i know u will reject me.
But I do this, is just because... :)
My friends gave me comment.
U r so childish, and that's why u lose, and that's why u can't get it, u really don't understand!
Yeah...
I am so childish,
I not dare to look at him, 
When i know u r with him, my mind will call me not to go find u even how depressed am I to wish to see u.
I scare lose. yeah.
That's why i'm learning, how to understand u.
Read ur mind.
Someone told me, when a people speak it out the words, 
which mean the people feel that is meaningless already.
Haha. it remind me something..
Yeah, i really don't und u,
so i wish i could know more about u,
U no need to tell me. cause if what also tell, mean consider as not understand u.
I want to understand u.
Sorry, cause i really scare i will lose to him.
Even all of my friends also told me that, yeah, he is much more better den u.
But..... 
40966804483087 :)
At last..
I also went to find u.
At there,
I know u r there.
How i wish i could walk into it and sit beside u and study with u.
I scare.
I really scare.
I don't know what to do.
Thinking how to see u.
Not dare to go inside and buy a cup of water.
Not dare to stand in front of u and say hi to u.
Cause i scare it will affect ur study..
Sigh.
But when i  asked u whether can come out? but u also choose to stay there,
means.... :")
Nvm, I will be fine.
Sorry because cheat u.
I don't want u to worry about me. so i choose to said i went back edi.
Actually, i sit at there for half an hour edi.
Just wish that u can come out.
But at last, u also didn't did it.
My friend called me to back.
I beg him for 5 more min just because I wish that u will come out and find me. :)
I wish so.
Slow down my speed.
Waiting, and waiting.
But u didn't come out.
Wait u at home.
But at last, what i get is just....
A dream.

Saturday 8 December 2012

Sunday

God, why u r so weird?
Why u create us with so?
Before becoming couple,
Him know well about her,
but after becoming couple.
She keep on blame him don't understanding her.
What is the meaning of becoming couple? :)




Good morning! 
This few days happened many things.
Thanks for everything.
First..
You.
I will be strong. Don't worry, i will do it. hehe. 
If it can make u happy, i willing to do it.
no matter what. :)
And i promise u, i won't think so much.
So don't because of me make u can't study la :)
Next,
Thanks, family. ur "advice". u all did cheer my whole day. :)
Appreciate it, cause i have u all. I love u all :)
Friends...
I will accept it. i know it is hard,
but.. nothing is better den her smile.
if she happy. i would like to do it :)
This few days,
like few years.
haha.
It hard to pass it, while i'm alone.
but.. i know.
after a nap, every thing will be fine.
Even i face the mirror,
Keep on blaming myself.
No matter how i blame u,
Hate myself.
After a nap, i feel peaceful.
Feel comfortable. haha..
So sorry, cause i know u r study but still call u and talk those things to u..
sorry.
Not because of what,
just.
I'm jealous about it only.
but nvm lar. at least u happy den okay le la. i'm not important. hehe
But when i saw u walk into the shop and study.
How i wish i could go in and accompany u..
But i give up,
cause i don't wish to disturb u..
So i used my car.
Keep on pass by and pass by.
Just wish to see u studying.
Den i will be alright.. hehe
U said u didn't bring ur charger. 
So i straight away, take my laptop and my books go u there.
haha. so disappointed, when i know that  have back home and get ur laptop charger.
so nvm la, just sit inside the car and see u walk into it..
It fee so bad, but at least u r alright. haha.
Trying to think in positive way..
Today morning,
Wish to buy something for u to eat de..
but sadly, u had ur breakfast edi..
So.. nvm la :)
Tot go into mcd and buy ice-cream treat u eat de..
but think har think har. 
nvm la,
u said u fat edi, so i don't want u continue fat ler. so fat de things. avoid it la. hehe
If u feel tired den don't wake up and jogging le la.. :)
Sleep as long as u like, den wake up and study.
If u think about ur breakfast, no problem.
I will prepare for u, 
just...
when u need me :) I will be there.
So happy cause just now can chat with u..
How i wish the time can stop at that time..
Or slow down..
I know it's impossible :)
Just don't think so much le la.
Think happy de things lar. hehe
All the best in ur exam wor.
I will pray for u~
GAMBATEH :)

Wednesday 5 December 2012

Thursday

"Every thing will be all right, 
forget yesterday things,
today will be good,
don't give up! :)"
That's the sentences that help me to become strong, u know? :(





Good morning,
Finally,
finally u willing to give me a chance to eat with u ler.
haha,
U know how happy am I?
I really feel like flying lor. haha.
But, my car doesn't want to listen to me..
Sigh,
Although that time i no mood to have my dinner edi,
but ur words,
finally i also ate ler.. hehe
Enjoy it so much :)
but.. why u keep on want me to go..?
I just wish to stay beside u..
Even one more second also can..
Just wish to stay beside u..
I don't care what they said.
I just wish that i could follow what my heart told me..
Their words not important.
I just don't want to regret.
I lose u one time,
I don't want it happen again.
If i have given the chance,
I will appreciate it.. :)
Today drama.
U came.
U know how happy am i?
I really can't describe my feel,
but..
Why he is beside u..?
I know lar..
but can u don't always stick with him..? :)
I know i am not ur who..
I can't order u to do what..
Just, i will feel sad only.
Nvm la, just do what u feel happy den okay edi lar..
U start to grow fat edi wor..
Don't always call him to fetch u la..
I willing to cycle with u :)
I willing to wait u.
I willing to do everything. including fetching u..
U said very scary rite..?
Actually, i will become so is just because i scare i will lose him.
All of my friends also said he is handsome then me,
feel like good den me,
even u also always stick to him..
He also always stick to u..
But do u know?
I really care about it..
I changed alot.
Just because I want u to know that, i willing to change just because of u.
I can do what he could, even better den him..
But why u just accept his invitation, but not me.?
I know..
Is because u want me to give up u rite..?
U told me that we can't be like last time like that edi..
Just be friend..
But...
I just want u to be mine.
We can't but if both of us willing.
Even can better den last time like that..
Can u please don't call me to give up u..?
It's hurt..
Very very hurt.
Every time when  u choose to stick with him.
I will feel very sad.
Even my tears will suddenly come out from my eyes.
But do u know?
I keep on remind myself.
"Everything will be alright, She only eat with him, study with him, don't think so much"
I edi tried not to think it.
But my mind will keep on think about it..
Even when u suddenly didn't reply me.
I will start to worried about u.
That's why i called u every morning and every night..
So wish that i could heard ur voice.
And can sleep nicely.
Do u know ur voice really can cheer my whole day?
See u also enough edi..
I really hope that every morning, when i wake up, i can heard ur voice, and also see u..
And every night.. before slept, can heard a good night from u.
Hear ur cute cute de voice,
Hehe :)
please.. don't call me give up u.
This sentence make me so depress.
Please don't said be back normal friends..
I want u so badly.. really :(
U r my everything..
Hope today everything r getting well.
Hope u this pig can concentrate on ur study lar.
Don't play his ipad le la. :)
U know i will angry d la. but u also know no matter what happen i also will forget u one :)
Good night lur :) hehe. sweet dream..

Monday 3 December 2012

Monday

I really don't know what are u thinking,
Sometime u treat me like ur boyfriend,
but sometime u will treat me very very cold.
But when i ask u, whether u gave me a chance?
but u will answer me just treat me like friend.
What should i do? :)





Good morning. hehe :)
Know u very hardworking..
So not dare to disturb u..
but when i know u r with him.
Don't know why,
I will feel very worry and..
Just will feel worry lor :)
Although u said he won't eat u..
Haha..
Just can't control myself,
Can't control my words,
So if i did said something wrong..
Please.. tahan awhile la.. hehe.
Don't suddenly treat me till so cold lur :(
I will feel sad one :)
So sorry..
I wish to go mcd just now.
But i got meeting..
If not i sure will go one..
But just now the sentence very weird..
U said:" u not said that i'm very important meh? why not dare to come?"
Actually not dare to come or not..
Just if i go, i will affect ur study.. then i better don't want go lar..
But u said only with him, make me feel like want to go accompany u..
But for u future.. i don't wish to disturb u study..
So i just be patient, although i feel sad :)
Don't keep it in mind, cause i edi make used in it..
Hurt only ma, tried to think something which is positive den nothing d la..
Hehe. don't worry ( although i know u won't worry la :) )
Yesterday so happy lor.
Feel like become back like last time ler.
Can play ball with u.
Play cards with u.
Chat with u.
The important thing is, "With u"
At first when u said no this answer. make me feel very disappointed d lor.
But when ur bro said neh, there is her.
Suddenly I became very happy. Haha
Wish to chat with u rite now..
But u said tired,
So i just give up la.. 
Cause i know, when u said tired.
U really mean tired,
Means u really need to sleep edi. haha.
So i better don't disturb u this pig la.
If not later scolded by u, this piggie xD
Erm.. Wish to share with u what happened today..
Ms. Chin. our ECS teacher, teach us how to maintain a relationship leh. haha
And teach us many things, which is about relationship d..
Haha.
Suddenly think about our past :)
U really did alot.
Sacrifices alot.
Just i didn't appreciate only.
But don't worry,
From now onward, 
You no need to sacrifice anything, 
But i will sacrifice mine.
To bring happiness to u :)
If u won't mind.
I never changes..
And what i promised to u yesterday.
I will do it. :)
And GOOD NITE :)
SWEET DREAM :)

Friday 30 November 2012

Saturday

我不是superman我不会飞来保护你。
我不是spiderman有预感能力。
我不是batman那么有财力。
我不是jumper我不会穿越时空去改变历史。
我不是超人,我也会流眼泪....


吴恺璇
我真的很喜欢你。
为什么就不给多我一次机会?
你到底要我做什么
你才肯信任我?
我真的很辛苦。
我真的很累。
每当我想放弃的时候,
我身边的朋友都会鼓励我叫我不要放弃。
真的,
我的心也叫我别放弃。。
你是我继续的理由。
为什么你就不回头望我一眼?
我知道我伤害了你。
但你可以不要对我那么绝情吗。。?
我真的很在乎你。
在乎到我很累。
我真的不可以没有你..
dolphin的事已经过了很久了,
为什么你就是不信?
我已经放下他很久了。
我们现在只是朋友。
很普通的朋友。
真的。
我在延伸写给你的一切,都是真的。
我那时是要放下她,然后接受你。
我承认我是利用你去忘记她,
我不想骗你。
但是过了延伸我就再也没有找她了。
因为我的心里面已经有了你。
你忘了吗?
我所对你说过的所有事情?
我对你做过的所有事情?
我对你是真心的。
真的,
我只喜欢你一个。
就当我求你了,
可以不要不理我吗?
可以接受我吗..?
我不是什么超人,
我受不了那么多刺激,
我也是很软落的。
可以不要对我那么绝情吗...?
我对你所做的每一件事
难道你都不明白吗...?
我真的很喜欢你。。

Wednesday 28 November 2012

Thursday

哭了才发现自己真的受伤了。
你曾经对我说你是我的。
也许是我们彼此都太年轻了。
你已离开我,但我还是想对你说。
想要你回到我的世界。




Tomorrow got chemistry exam.
Still one more chapter to go.
Can't study well.
Sigh.
I miss u so much..
when u gone, my world is bleeding.
U hurt me so bad, u know? :(
This few days,
I edi tried my best.
To control my attitude.
I changed. just because of u..
Called u,
is because i hope to hear ur sound.
is because i wish to chat with u.
is because when chat with u, i will feel happy.
U said no need to call u.
waste my money,
later blame no money,
but i tell u,
u r important den money.. u know? :(
U always ask me is it got important d things so find me?
Actually i hope to tell u that, yeah, u r my important person.
Sigh..
I just wish to hear ur sound, for much longer.
Nothing to chat, but i also will think something to chat.
Just hope that u don't close my phone..
Every night i also 很不要面 like that ask u whether got dinner eat anot.
Want me accompany u eat or not?
or hlp u da bao?
I know. every night u also got ppl accompany u eat dinner..
I just wish i could find a reason, to let me accompany u..
Do u know? :(
Even through i knew the answer, but i also don't care about it.
continue asking.
I know before that, u blame me before.
cause didn't accompany u eat dinner.
but... now can? I know it was too late..
Every morning also will find a reason to call u.
Give u a morning call..
I know u can wake up..
Just wish that, i can heard ur sound at every morning.
heard u 撒娇 de sound.
It really can cheer my whole day :)
So miss those day.
I hope that i can fetch u back every day..
Not him :(
Every day also ask whether can i fetch u or not..
but always give u rejected..
I hope to fetch u back..
Sigh..
Erm.. just now i haven't say something to u..
Goodnight. and sweet dream :)

Tuesday 27 November 2012

Tuesday

When I saw u lead his hand, my heart is no longer "lup" "dup" sound.
But is "pling" "plang" sound..
It's really hurt, do u know? :"(



Yesterday got biology test.
This my first time,
I got confidence to tell u that,
i might can score 20 above in this exam.
U know how happy am i?
Cycle back home, just want to share this message to u..
It's raining.
But when i'm cycling back to home..
I saw u. with him.
U lead his hand, and he is using umbrella to cover u..
I didn't see wrong..
It is u.
But i'm not sure who is it..
At that moment,
Just 1 second.
Feel like want to die.
Feel like my heart broke.
Feel like everything is not important anymore..
Suddenly my mood very down..
Sigh..
Why?
I so hope that it is ur sister..
Immediately text u.. but u didn't reply me..
So i called u..
U told me that because the floor very wet,
So u lead his hand..
Haiz.
I feel like drop from mountain.
Really really down.
although u said so.
but i also feel very sad.
Suddenly no mood to do everything.
My report,
Study.
Long time didn't call u.
I asked for a chance.
But u said be friend better..
Sigh.
I know i hurt u before.
I really hope that u can give me one more chance to prove it to u that i can give u a better life.
I can bring u happiness.
Can u please give me one more chance?
To love u more?
U asked me, if u give me chance what would i do?
Future?
At the moment when i saw u with him.
I knew that, my future can't without u.
My future is u.
U r my future.
My life cant without u.
Losing u, let me feel like...
Everything is abnormal.
U r the reason, why i hardworking.
U r the reason why i study till so hard.
U said i know u well,
once ur heart died, that mean really died.
SIgh.
I know u know me well as well.
When i said i will do it, sure i can do it..
Why u don't give me one more chance? :(
I promise u, i will do what ever i can to become a better guy..
I promise u, i will hurt u anymore.
I promise u, no matter what happened, i also won't leave u alone..
But why u push me away.
It's so hurt when i asked we still got chance to be couple?
But u said "no, i think"
U hurt me so bad..
I want u so badly.
Hope to always be by ur side.
Hope to be back before that, so happy, so caring.
I...
Can u please don't walk so close with him..? :(
Can u please don't...?
Please?
I..
I'm sorry...
What should i do..?
To let u become my the only one..?
What should i do..?
To let u back to my side..?
Can u please... don't leave me alone..?
Don't let my heart die can..?

Friday 23 November 2012

Friday

Life is just like a movie.
U r the main character.
Every of ur friends are just a minor part.
Their jobs is to help and teach u to become a success character.
But at last, u also need to do it by urself.
Yeah, to become a success one, u must win lonely.



Good morning! :)
Kinda busy, cause gona face two exam on next week.
i'm going to die.
Nxt week organic chemistry,
Doesn't ask much, just at least let me get 30 above la.
Hahaha..
This few days also very late only sleep.
I think soon i will become owl ler. 
Seriously, 
24 hours for me, is not enough.
i think i need 48 hours.24 hours use to sleep.
And another 24 hours use to do my things.


Wednesday that day,
U suddenly text me, and it shocked me.
Unexpected.
I tot u still angry me..
But is so happy to receive ur message.
So sorry cause i didn't notice u pass by there twice ><
Hardworking? no use la. no matter how many effort had i put i also can't score well.
What is my problem?
sigh.
But u suddenly text me, make me feel happy lor. haha
but after tat, u didn't text me anymore,
Can u please don't say some words such as "okay la, don't disturb u la" 
No matter how busy am i. I also won't forget to reply u.
I won't do it again.
I promised myself no matter how busy am i, I also will reply u.
So please don't angry anymore..
Friday, today.
Saw u sit at there.
At first i tot that just pass by enough la. act like didn't saw u.
But when i reach beside u.
My hand will automatic say hi to u.
Why?
Like usual, even tot u didn't ask,
But i also will tell u everything,
Even u don't want to know,
But i also will tell u.
:)
Haiz, many thing passed is passed.
Even u keep on said we still got chance
Even u keep on said she just play u nia, she actually still love me one.
But i know well about her.
When she mean it, she really mean it.
Like if she said tired, she is really tired.
Her tired mean put down.
I know.
I know her well.
She nvr nvr 心软.
Cause she is she..
And i'm who am i.
Just let it be ba.
Time will solve everything. :)

Monday 19 November 2012

Monday

It's raining,
Why got rain?
Why after rainy day will be sunny day?
Why there are rainbow after rain?
Why i can't see any rainbow after rain?
Does it hide up?
Why so selfish?
Since u r so beautiful, why don't let me see u?
彩虹的故事,
a nice song :)




Good morning,
Today so tired. ><
Rushing for my report,
and also prepare for my wednesday exam.
Well,
Still haven't prepare yet.
Feel like gona GG.
What to do?
No motivation. :(
Today went to school,
My friend treat me eat sticky.
It remind me u..
Still remember that day u suddenly call come and chat with me.
And ask me whether want any present anot? Cause u r traveling.
I told u no need. But u still go and buy sticky for me.
Just because of u, i only eat sticky ><
At first, u brought it back.
Inside contain many colour.
Don't know which one should i choose. haha.
U r the one who told me that green colour is the most nice one.
Then i only start to eat green colour.
Only green colour. Haha.
So miss those day.
Ur sticky still at my home.
Haven't finish yet.
Cause no more green colour, and anothers colour i don't like. haha
Don't say me picky eater please. i'm not Xp
But hope share with u. The happiness of eating green colour de sticky.. :)
Is already midnight 2.24 a.m.
I saw u online,
But i don't know what to do.
Should i say i couldn't do anything?
Well,
I really hope to say a hi to u..
but i not dare.
Cause i know u won't reply me anymore..
Keep on press ur name on the chat box, and close it.
Until i found out that u have offline..
Yeah..
Time won't wait anyone.
Chance also.
If u missed, it won't return.
Chance provided by u, but i didn't appreciate it..
How was ur day?
Today i saw ur sister with formal leh.
Haha. She's so handsome =.=
Saw her at block b, i think she is currently having group assignment?
Today have class till 8 o.. tired till hell.
back home still need to rush for my report.
Until now....
Got drink more water?
Please take good care of urself ar, cause the weather is hot, easily get sick.
But i think my remind also no use la, cause he will remind u right? haha
Saw ur new pic with ur dog. Tot want to press like de. 
but... suan liao la :)
Sure busy ur assignment until very tired lur..
Faster go rest lar, don't make urself feel tired ar. :)
If u let me know that u fall in sick den u sure kena from me edi. haha.
Goodnight lor..

Sunday 18 November 2012

Sunday

I'm still waiting,
Waiting u.
Please don't leave me alone.


Good morning..
Yesterday think alot..
Thx for ur advice. :)
At first i tot that friend really cannot,
but when clam down and think clearly,
Isn't every perfect couple start with a best friendship?
Sorry.. cause I think i had made u down.
Made u sad.
So sorry...
So regret.
But it's all too late..
Just like what my friend said, 
Every thing also got it's time limit one.
When the time reached, u can't never get it back.
So before it expired, please appreciate it.
Yeah. is too late.
If i were given second chance.
I would like to say yes.
No matter what happen.
I also will say yes.
OR not today we also won't become like that.
If that day, i say a yes.
At least we can be friend :)
But..
I can't pass myself.
When i saw him chat with u,
Eat with u,
know him go ur house,
know u walk very near with him.
I will feel... 
U know?
Even i told my friend i'm okay.
But that's was just an illusion of mine.
Even i tried to think that it's all right noel. U will be better after a nap.
But soon i will feel lonely.
Soon i will feel sadness.
That's all fake.
I'm not okay.
Today was a rainy day.
But why i will feel sadness?
Why i will feel lonely?
Why i will feel moody?
Feel like want to shout out loud to express my feel.
I'm so tired.
R u facing the same situation like me before?
Yeah, i deserve it. sorry.
You know how was the feel? Now i do know it, sorry.
Today watched running man. one esp.
DO u know how was the feel when u watched something that is funny but u can't laugh it out instead of feel like wana cry? :)
I feel so suffer.
First time watch running man without laughing.
Well,
I still remember u r the first person to tell me that i look alike him..
Haha. feel so happy, cause it is the first time, got people praise me look like an artist.
Although he's not handsome. :)
But u told me that u love him very much, call me to spoil his image.
Hahaha.
Now think back also feel very funny.
Few times.
I feel like want to text u.
But at last i also can't do it.
Cause i know u won't reply me.
U told me that u won' forgive me anymore..
haha. so what i can do is ask u at here.
How was ur day?
Whole day also busy assignment?
Did he bring u go eat?
I beat he did it :)
Don't let urself down, if u feel tired, please go take a rest. :)
Take care.
Goodnight :)

Saturday 17 November 2012

Saturday

Is it a couple
can no longer be back a normal friend after they break up?
No choice to choose,
Just to become and enemy?



Finally,
The end.
We get the conclusion,
Every thing solved.
At the end,
U choose to be alone,
Choose to don't want to back like normal,
Choose to be like that.
Actually, i don't think that is a problem.
I think the reason is because of him right..?
haha. finally i successful forced u to said it.
Not because of what.
I had no reason. 
Why don't give me one more chance?
It happen one more time.
I tot is already the end.
I tot it won't happen anymore,
I tot it won't happen to me anymore.
I did promise myself it won't happen again.
but why?
Why i had edi tried my best,
and finally what i get is this?
God u told me that everything is fair,
U told me if u will gain what u gift.
U told me that everything is fair.
U told me that if u willing to give it out, den u will get it back as well.
But why?
I paid so many.
I sacrifice so many,
But what i get is like that?
Why i don't deserve it?
Why?
I remember i did pray for u rite?
What should i do?
I am tired of it, I don't want to continue to walk it.
If is not the way, please bring me to the road that u want me to walk it.
I feel so suffer.


Thank you.
Thank you so much.
U r the one who bring me happiness and sadness.
U r the one who allow me to find out who am I.
U r the one why am i studying. 
Thank you,
Although start from today, my hp won't appear ur message anymore.
Thank you,
Because u made me become stronger.
Thank you,
Because u successful make my heart died.
I won't trust any people anymore.
Thank you,
Because u made me become more unfeeling.
From now onward,
I will become very very unfeeling.
Just because of u.
I won't let this happen again.
Still remember how we meet?
Still remember the moment when we exchange our hp number?
Still remember the moment that we study together?
Still remember when i down, u r the one who cheer me up?
Still remember when i scold by my family, my friend spoil my mood, u r the one who helped me and accompany me?
Still remember u told me before? no matter what happened u also will stand beside me and support me?
Still remember when i going to give up, u r the one who forced me to try my best..?
Still remember during my birthday, u treat me eat sushi?
Still remember u keep on apologize to me because can't pass my birthday with me at last year?
Still remember u gift a necklace to me during my birthday.
Still remember when i passed my car test, u r the first girl that i fetch?
Still remember we walk to so far d snow fushion, just because of study?
Do u remember i told u before, no matter what happen i also won't leave u alone...?
I...
I do remember all of it..
I do..
I really do..
I did promised u, i won't hurt u..
I do remember it as well.
I really do...
 

Friday 16 November 2012

Friday

Someone told me,
If u found something that is important,
No matter what happen,
NO matter how hard is it,
No matter u need to sacrifice what important things.
Just go and get it.
Then u will deserve it
Then u won't feel regret.
But why i sacrificed many thing,
I also can't get it?
Does it mean i don't deserve it? :)


What happened?
Whole day also no mood study,
haha,
next wednesday still got exam. 
Headache.
My mood wasn't on.
Hope u r the one who push me to study.
Hope u r still like the one that i knew.
Always push me go study.
Why today don't bother me?
Did i made u angry?
Sorry ar, doesn't mean it.
Wish i could control myself.
But always also fail.
Really hope to get an answer from u.
Really hope that u will tell me the answer :)
Although u told me the answer.
I also can't accept it..
Why don't bother me?
Whole day also waiting for ur message.
Hais.
Why so fierce?
Just because there's a wall between us.
So we can't communicate well?
Or some noise is disturbing us?
So we can't communicate?
My mum told me,
As a friend.
U should communicate well with them,
Use ur ear to listen,
Think before u talk,
The most important thing is,
U must believe him or her.
Then u will only keep ur friend or ur lover.
But i know what was she talking about.
Yeah,
I think it before.
I really used my brain and tried to think.
I edi tried my best to be patient.
But always fail.
Haha, so sorry.
Maybe because of it, den i doesn't deserve it? :)
Goodnight :)

Thursday 15 November 2012

Thursday

For a guy like me, my answer is u.
even i tell you simply.
even if I don't make sense.
Even I can't explain,
this is how I feel :)

So sorry.
Treat u so fierce.
hope u can forgive me.
Until now u also haven't reply me.
isit mean u didn't open facebook?
Or u not willing to forgive me?
Or.. U busy do ur assignment?
Or u spamming ur time with him?
Well,
what can i say is sorry.
Finally reach home edi.
Feel so tired,
why u were not here? :)
Actually,
what i hope is,
Now i'm at KL
Help them.
Sigh,
why had i become so?
God church don't go
Got family don't want acompany.
haha
I changed.
Far away from GOd.
Maybe because of that,
He punished me?
haha.
Whole day also wait for ur message.
Wait nothing :) haha.
Hope someone can chat with me.
Can't find another edi.
Why today u didn't online?
so weird.
Hope u r alright.
Well what to do? go study lor..
Goodnight :)


Tuesday 13 November 2012

Wednesday

U tell me u will sad because of it.
U tell me u will be happy because of it.
Why when i do that, u doesn't feel happy?
Why when i do that, u doesn't feel sad?
Why the sky is raining?
U don't tell me, actually u r the one who is crying.

Good morning :)
Finally u give me fetch u.
so happy,
cause u gave me a chance to let me fetch u.
Happy cause u let me feel like we can soon be back like before we quarrel.
Happy cause u let me to fetch u home :)
But why u look like so tired?
and busy?
Doing assignment?
Sorry because of disturbing u.
Hope u don't mind.
But when i saw ur facebook show u r with him.
Don't know why will feel jealous.
Haha.
Maybe is just my wrong impression??
I think i shouldn't go 8 ur profile. Haha
Hey u ar, yeah is u.
can u please don't ignore me?
Will find u chat because u r the one who let me won't think others.
cause u r the one who can cheer my day. 
haha. so can u please don't sound like don't want chat with me?
pleaseeee? :)
Goodnight lor..
Enjoy ur holiday :)

Saturday 10 November 2012

Sunday



Why does Sun nvr appear when moon appear?
Why there are morning and night?
Why there are rainy day and sunny day?
Why they can't combine together?


Erm..
Morning..
Yesterday, So sorry.
Yeah, although i edi know the answer.
But i keep on asking u.
Again and again.
Just hope to get a answer which I wanted.
Stupid rite?
But u r the one who decide whether I'm a stupid guy or a clever guy.
Finally, I had make it clear.
Thx for telling me the truth.
Thx for giving me a lot of chances.
Thx u so much.
Alright. I will make it clear start from today.
Just do what u like la.
I promise u, i will focus in my studies start from today.
I won't let myself regret anymore.
I will try my best.
I promise myself it won't happen anymore.
I will keep it till the end of the world.
U r the one who make me become strong.
thx u so much :)
Apologize for those passed things.
I did seriously hurt u.
Yeah.
I think u r taking revenges.
haha.
although u said no.
However, if u really did so.
I won't angry, but will sad only :)
U have successful hurt me.
I will be alright. Don't worry :)

Friday 9 November 2012

Friday

Friday, feel so weird. Shouldn't be happy?
Why i can't feel it?
Cause the nxt day is saturday wert.
Saturday holiday wert, and also sunday.
but why i feel like nothing?  U said i always forget ur things o?
Actually i never forget ur things.
Sigh.
Do u remember, how we meet?
Do u remember, the first time u teach me in my studies?
Do u remember, if without u i probably won't feel that books are important?
Do u remember, U treat me eat sushi?
Do u remember, no matter how was my mood u always be at my side?
Do u remember, every morning i also will receive a message from u? Do u remember, when i didn't find u, u also will automatic find me?
DO u remember... I think is no longer important..
Yeah. I'm sorry.
Cause i didn't appreciate it. yeah,i doesn't deserve it..
Hmmmm.
 How was ur exam?
 Does it affected ur mood?
Hope it won't. Haha.
Mine? very very weak la. I think u will scold me once u know it.. haha
But i think it won't happen anymore.
I do remember u scold me before cause i didn't study well
I do remember u care about me, always ask me whether got what question anot?
I do remember even u'r busying. u also will teach me how to do my report.
I do remember no matter what happened, U also will care about me :)
Thx u. So regret why i didn't study well.
haha..
Thank you so much :')

Thursday 8 November 2012

:)

Goodnight, is a word that can break a conversation. But isn't it should be told at night? Erm.. so sorry, cause i make u feel so. Anyway, thx for ur caring :) I just can't make use in it. Can u just reply my text? Although i will always call u go do ur things. Every time my hp vibrate. I hope that's a message from u. But since like my hp doesn't want to receive ur message. So sorry, because i will said so. So sorry, because i do so. So sorry, because i hurt u before. So sorry, because i can't make u smile. So sorry, because i failed to keep ur tear not to drop it out from ur eyes. Yeah, yesterday u told me. Now my experiences is like last time yours. But only half. Feel so regret when i saw this. What i can say is sorry. And just now. feel like i'm so fierce. Haha. yeah better don't break his promise. U promised him, den must do it :) So sorry cause i broke my promise. But u did broke my promise as well right? So fair fair la. haha Every morning also wish to get a message from u :) Even just a simply GOOD morning also can easily cheer up my day. Erm.. Goodnight :)

Thursday 1 November 2012

My second day without u

1/11 My second day without u. 111 haha. A new day. wake up in the morning. 10 o'clock class. wake at 9.45. Almost late for class. luckily i got speed. haha Suddenly feel like i should work hard edi. All of my friend also so clever, exp me. Haiz. Why am i always the last? Noel, Add oil. Suddenly receive a message from u. TOT u send wrong message.. haha But ur typing style let me feel that u r so fierce. :) we just end up our conversation with a "bu shi de" Actually, i'm not joking. I really hope that u will reply me. SO hope to tell u that, I wish to chat with u. So happy when u find me. suddenly let me think about the time when we r still good :) So happy to know that u so care about me. Scare to chat with u, scare to see u. It's just a cheat. I wish to chat with u, i wish to see u. But u suddenly didn't reply me edi. Sigh. But i'm happy because before u sleep, i still can receive ur message. While i am doing my report, i receive ur message. suddenly feel like all those problem gone. :) Seriously, u had become some one that can seriously affect my day. Good nite my beloved, hope the bee won't do anything to u la. haha Sweet dream :)

Wednesday 31 October 2012

My 1st day without you :)

Finally it's happen. Once i tot that i won't happen, but it finally happened as well. Wake up in the morning, busying because of wearing formal and prepare for my presentation, and i also slept for 3 hours only. So tired >.< As usual, i pick my phone, Tot to text u a morning :) but once i open my inbox, i only realise that we are no longer like formely. Today is my presentation, why u r not here? last week u did promised me rite? U will come and support me, but where are u? many things happened. yeah, i almost forget. U promised me u won't find me again. Yeah, i almost forget edi. How was ur days? A day without u really feel suffer. Many things want to tell u. Normally when i get my result i will share with u. but... Miss u, seriously. :) where are u? What are u doing? U know? I feel happy because my presentation and exam ended. haha But why i can't share my happiness with u? You suddenly disappeared from my life. Feel like want to cry, where are u? I keep on looking at my phone. every times it's ring i so hope that it was u. but why? Know u not feeling well. please take good care of urself.. :)

Wednesday 26 September 2012

UTAR LIFE


hmmm. don't know whether u still got see my blog anot lar. But nvm lar, i know who are u right now. see u so happy, i also happy la. I will type my blog start from today.:) So. my utar life started. At first, i tot that nothing special lor. think want to solo. hardworking.. study hard. But so happy. i really appreciate it. nvr think that uni life is so happy. Got new friends, new target, and they are the reason why i want to study :) doesn't wish to leave them lor TT trying my best to catch up their learning speed as well. Hope i can do it lar. sem 2 edi, i will gambateh de. :) Just very envy, cause see both of u like that Don't hope to think so much, but it can't be stopped. I wish i could go back to that day, why am i so stupid? why i will say it out that sentences? I never tried so jealous before.. maybe is GOD want to punish me? try to think for others? hmmm what i can say is. Look at them feel like i had been returned to my 15 years old life. :)